Monday, May 25, 2009

I KNOW I MUST


I know i must be strong
I know i must be tough
Coz i know that you dont love me the way
You used to be before

I know that this is just
Another broken dream
I may not have you in my arms again
Baby i know i must

Baby tonight is gonna be the night
I'll remember for the rest of my life
Baby its all because of you i know now
That love is so blind

I know i must be strong
I know i must be tough
Baby i know that you just
Don't love me the way you used to be


Coz Baby tonight is gonna be the night
We gonna remember for the rest of our life
I'll not bother anymore or your love

Baby tonight...
I'll remember for the rest of my life
And its all because of you
I'll have to move on....

**(incomplete version, will upload again sometimes)

Poem for sister Zuraidah



HOW DOES IT FEEL TO WAKE UP IN THE MORNING
BUT DOESN’T KNOW WHAT TO DO
HOW DOES IT FEEL TO LEAVE BEHIND EVERYTHING
YOU ONCE KNEW, BUT NOW ITS GONE
HOW DOES IT FEEL, KNOWING THAT TOMORROW IS ANOTHER NEW DAY
HAVING TO ADAPT TO CHANGES
THAT LEADS INTO UNCERTAINTIES AND MILLION OPPORTUNITIES

YET YOU ARE STRONG, BOLD AND COURAGEOUS
TAKE FULL CONTROL OF THIS SHIP OF NEW HOPE
IN FINDING INNER PEACE AND SATISFACTION
WHO HAVE SUCCUMB TO MANY DIFFICULTIES
THEN SHAPING YOU INTO A NOBLE LADY
A FIGURE OF A ROLE MODEL
A WOMAN WITH HIGH DIGNITY
WHO WE PROUD OF AND RESPECT.

WE MANY NOT KNOW WHAT FUTURE HOLD FOR US
WHAT MAY BE OR COULD BE….
BUT WITH ALL OUR HEART WE WISHES YOU GOOD LUCK
SURELY WE WILL MISS YOU
KAK ZU FOR ALL THESE YEARS OF YOUR SACRIFICES.
WE APPRECIATE IT.
TQ

Sunday, May 3, 2009

HE DOESN’T REMEMBER ME TONIGHT


Maybe the best part has passes us
Which we wasted for not knowing when its’ actually gone…
Maybe the Lust just ended
After the session of laughter and joy that now seems bleak


Night after night….
You and I are distance away from phone calls nor meeting up face to face
Unlike those times where we used to spend chatting endlessly regardless
At time we misses each other so much and can’t bear to spend a day away
Those time now has passes us too


Tonight after last night’s fight on phone…
The feeling of unwanted once again knocked at the door
Feeling cold and numb… anticipating of simple messages or short phone call…
Yet, time slipped through and nothing happened, tonight
He doesn’t seems to remember me tonight at all
He doesn’t remember me tonight
What am I suppose to do?


Maybe he doesn’t remember me
Or refused to remember me tonight
Perhaps… tonight is the beginning of another night like this
Until I understand eventually how its will ended
That he will never call me like the night before tonight…
Everything now has vanished into thin air…

Monday, September 8, 2008

NOT YOU NOR HIM





You….
Are the first who touch my heart and hold its
But keeping it too long through the test of time….
Has finally taking its toll
Never that I whisper the words of hatred because I still love you

Him…..
Suddenly appear in front of me
Fulfilling all my desire but….
The thought of him would change make me sigh
Argh… what a fool would thoughts he would change for me

You…
Should have known better
Taking that chance and opportunity but…
Why letting it go and slips through your hands
Now, I don’t even know where to begin

Him…
Knowing you has taught me of myself
However, I must let go of your hand somehow
Because I can never complete you in mine
Two individual with different passionate

You….
Never easy to say goodbye
After such time passes us by
Yet it you who force me to walk away
Yes… I’ll miss you so,
Yes....i still love you!
But I think you are a fool…


Him…
I’ll walk away in the midst of dust…
When you never even aware or too blind to see
How I’ve change for you
Yes… I started to love you too
Dame!!!… merely words for you
Without any meaning at all



You…
Too busy to realize that I am here for you
Yet, caught up in messy trouble of your own
I can’t help you, I wish I could but I’m helpless too
I’m drowned yet you never catch me either…
Good guy wouldn’t let women waiting too long darling!


Him…
Notice me as only physical
Ignoring my heart almost completely…
But there’s sincerity in your words, I trust you!
Honesty and loyalty, you couldn’t comply that
Good guy wouldn’t let women cry honey!


Silently, my tears falling like rains…
Saying Goodbye
Saying Nothing
Keeping it all inside, no one will ever know
Who I wish for more…
As has it all too late for me?
You make my heart melt each time…
Him make me a better person inside…
I’ll walk away now… with a deep sigh, with a silent cry…
Two guys who think they are good guys
Leaving this heart broken apart
Yet, where do I stood for now?
I promise I’ll go quietly as my heart couldn’t handle it anymore
Better it end at this crossroad
Two men I love them both
The one who hold my heart and…
The one who hold my hand
Make it real or take it all away
If not you or him is going to stay, because…its

Not you nor him




(quote a bit from THE CORSS –DON’T SAY YOU LOVE ME)

Sunday, September 7, 2008

MY COLOURS

GOLDINUNIVERSE


See yourself as others see you...You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmoniousrelationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which therecould be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is justaround the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard againstthe possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you havebeen taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking arelationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have theneed to put on a false front.You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration andunnecessary stress. You are carried away by other people's enthusiasm and looking for thatidealised relationship, be it in a business or personal situation, which you are able to sharewith a mutual depth of understanding. You have lowered your defences in the past and youhave been hurt, so you are now extremely wary of being exploited. You are still ready totrust people on the condition that they are prepared to offer you proof of their sincerity.You wear your heart on your sleeve and since you are an emotional person you are apt togive your all - heart and soul - to all those that show you a little affection; but take care - itwould appear that you have been extremely hurt in the past and you keep leaving yourselfwide open for punishment.You are trying to improve your position and prestige - be it in your life or in your workplace.Things are, at this time, OK - but they could be better. You feel that it is essential that youbreak down any opposition that could possibly lurk in the shadows. You know that you arequite capable of achieving this set goal because you have to and because it is essential toyour self esteem.


(Can you believe this stuff? check it out...)

Sunday, August 3, 2008

LOVE DESERTED ME

Maybe …..what choices do we have
Fallen in love then fallen apart again and again
Maybe …. What can we do?
You’ve broken this innocence heart
To choose in between TWO HEART…
One must endure the suffering
While the other one leads to happiness!!!!
Whatever choices we made
That will alter our future ahead
I know better now
That love once so strong between us
Love has deserted me
I’m stuck in this vacuum of love
Feeling regret and sorry for myself
Because you have flame up my fire
Yet now, you’re the one that has to lid it off
What the meaning of this?
To feel love and touching it….
In the end
Love deserted me eventually.





LONELINESS KILLED HIM

Do I seem to care what used to be or not?
Do I seem to lose control of what I wanted to become and oevcome?
Do I seem to realize what I’ve lost and gain?
Do I seem to look at life as pretty and beautiful as I seen it when I was a child?
Then why it looks different now?
Can this heart change as time passes us by,
Like wind blowing never came back
Can i forsake this love and cast it away forever?

I can tell you as much as this true….
Once remained this heart so pure and beautiful
Once i have you but you make me a fool
Silent keep a gap so huge
Love destroyed me, ripped my heart apart inside
Loneliness killed a person in me
Or what that used to be of me
And now, look at what has become of me…..

Do I seem to care bout anything?